I was about to resume something i thought that could really help or somehow could make me accept things smoothly. But i knew it would be delayed forever. I read an article, it made me really sick. Disappointments rushed into my veins and tortured every happy cells in there. I never expected that it could be that worst. I thought things beyond to what the universe really knew throughout those playful years. Made me feel betrayed and played by hands of wax figure i thought was true. Definitely, it’s not and would never ever be real. Now it has left me craving for reactive gas to spoil every single thing left to unfasten.

Sobra sobra akong naiiyak ngayon. Wala ng tigil yung luha ko. Bukas na kasi yung release ng concert ticket ng 1D. Actually nagsimula ito nung May 19 pagbasa ko palang na sa May 23 na yung kick off, first 15k fans. Bumagsak na yung luha ko. As in hindi ko na mapatigil. Ang hirap lang kase kapag ganitong biglaan. Lalo na’t palagi kaming nanonood ng Myx. Number one yung You and I. Tulo na ng tulo luha ko. Wala kasi talaga akong ipon, ineexpect ko na mga december pa kasi matagal pa yung concert nakakabigla lang sa ganitong panahon na walang wala ako.

I’m one of those crowds who yells “More!!”
Who smells the different odors,
Who cries for countless aches,
Who saves money to buy your products,
But you don’t know that I’m breathing
Because I’m one of those million fans
Who tortures her parent’s pocket just to see you.