Originally posted by lifeisacruelgame

If someone will ask whom hero i wanted to be, maybe i’ll just choose to be myself, but have the power of attracting all the pain, sadness, hate, bad memories. And people will call me The Magnet, kinda usual name but it’s cute anyway. Because i hate to see others being possessed by their pain. They kind of acting along their sadness, which leads to nothing but depressed life. If i could just be a hero, i’m willing to bear their pain and everything that kills them. I want to hold them until they can stand by their own with no falls and stumbles anymore. It’s really heartbreaking to know that there are people who lost their battle with pain and just have the guts to end their borrowed lives by their own bare hands.

I used to believe that when you cut the strings you can’t make it to heaven, there’s no room for suicidal there. And i wish i was wrong. But to be honest, those suicidal people, i find them as ¼ brave, ¼ coward, and ½ selfish. ¼ brave for having the guts to just end everything when we all don’t know the next life that’s waiting for us, what if it’s more than you can bear, what if it’s more than that kills you in your previous life. We don’t know, but you still embrace it. You’re one brave person for taking steps forward in a place, where turning back will never be an option. (You’re ¼ brave if you feel afraid of the afterlife, but you choose it anyway). ¼ coward for just giving up so hardly, even how hard and long the pain is, even how tiring it is. There’s no way God won’t give you a battle without sword and shield. You just have to pick it up and continue the battle. Winning is in your hands not in your fate. And ½ selfish for being overqualified to the living-for-just-myself list of people. If you thought you’re the only one who’s being tortured in this crazy world, you’re the most selfish person i’ve ever known. Just think why the growth of population is getting bigger now. It’s an ongoing situation that no one can stop it, unless something powerful manages to destroy all the ladies. Meaning, God has give us everything. We needed shoulder to cry on, there are people who are labeled as friends, we needed guidance and necessities provider, there are people who are called as family. You just have to let your mind and heart open, let them see right through your soul that you’re hurting, you’re struggling hardest. Don’t be selfish you fool, let them reach you.