I don’t know how to convince myself that it’s going to be fun, when i myself saw it before that it’s not. And now, it feels like it’s going to be a product of uncertainties. I have a few days left and i know i don’t have the chance to ruin everything since i already said right from my mouth to mark that date and i’ll be having a party. I already felt this before and maybe my subconscious directed me to this and now i’m in trouble. I have to act as if i’m happy for what’s coming. I don’t want to blame anyone nor myself. I just have to accept that it’s really happening, just a few hours and it’s over. How i wish that subconscious didn’t interfere with my business.